The meaning of John legend (All of me) for me

What would I do without your smart mouth
Drawing me in, and you kicking me out
Got my head spinning, no kidding, I can’t pin you down
What’s going on in that beautiful mind
I’m on your magical mystery ride
And I’m so dizzy, don’t know what hit me, but I’ll be alright

My head’s under water
But I’m breathing fine
You’re crazy and I’m out of my mind

'Cause all of me
Loves all of you
Love your curves and all your edges
All your perfect imperfections
Give your all to me
I’ll give my all to you
You’re my end and my beginning
Even when I lose I’m winning
'Cause I give you all of me
And you give me all of you oh

How many times do I have to tell you
Even when you’re crying you’re beautiful too
The world is beating you down, I’m around through every move
You’re my downfall, you’re my muse
My worst distraction, my rhythm and blues
I can’t stop singing, it’s ringing, in my head for you

My head’s under water
But I’m breathing fine
You’re crazy and I’m out of my mind

'Cause all of me
Loves all of you
Love your curves and all your edges
All your perfect imperfections
Give your all to me
I’ll give my all to you
You’re my end and my beginning
Even when I lose I’m winning
'Cause I give you all of me
And you give me all of you
Give me all of you oh

Cards on the table, we’re both showing hearts
Risking it all, though it’s hard

'Cause all of me
Loves all of you
Love your curves and all your edges
All your perfect imperfections
Give your all to me
I’ll give my all to you
You’re my end and my beginning
Even when I lose I’m winning
'Cause I give you all of me
And you give me all of you

I give you all, all of me
And you give me all of you oh

Well, John Legend used this song when he proposed to his fiance, so I think it's pretty safe to say this song is about loving someone fiercely and endlessly, and asking them to share in a relationship of trust but the other side  I also think it's about unrequited love. About being in love with a person no matter what, even though you don't really want to. Being in love with a person, who doesn't love you back. And how much it hurts
inside...

You’re my downfall, you’re my muse
My worst distraction, my rhythm and blues
I can’t stop singing, it’s ringing, in my head for you

 (my fave part of this song, :P) 

My playlist

My Summer Playlist – 2014

1. Ten Feet Tall – Afrojack Ft. Wrabel
(best when put on full blast)

2. Single Ladies (DJs From Mars Remix) – Beyonce
(because, Beyonce)

3. Beat Of The Music – Brett Eldredge
(the perfect lay out by the pool song)

4. Summer – Calvin Harris
(you’ll probably be hearing this song everywhere this Summer)

5. If You Left Him For Me – Cody Simpson
(“does he call you gorgeous even in the morning ’cause I would, I would” – thanks Codezzz)

6. Give Life Back To Music – Daft Punk
(I feel like I’m about to fight a robot when I hear the first 10 seconds)

7. Wagon Wheel – Darius Rucker
(classic)

8. Show You Off – Dan & Shay
(the duo are my new obsession, but you know this already)

9. SING – Ed Sheeran
(better believe I will learn the rap part by the end of the Summer)

10. Radioactive – Imagine Dragons Ft. Kendrick Lamar
(this will be put on repeat at least 52 times)

11. Talk Dirty To Me – Jason Durulo
(I have to dance every time I hear this, it just takes over)

12. Silhouettes – Avicii
(that beat)

13. Lettin’ The Night Roll – Justin Moore

14. Let The Groove In – Justin Timberlake
(always have to have the smooths sounds of JT on every Summer playlist)

15. This Moment – Katy Perry
(my favourite song on her “Prism” album)

16. We Were Us – Keith Urban Ft. Miranda Lambert
(yes, just, yes)

17. Come With Me Now – KONGOS
(this is such an odd tune, but I dig it)

18. Be Free – Live Element
(“LIVE YOUR LIFE BE FREE-EEE-EE, BE FREE-EEE-EE”)

19. How To Be A Heartbreaker – Marina And The Diamonds
(watch the music video, all the hot shirtless men you can ever ask for, it’s marvellous)

20. Love Never Felt So Good – Michael Jackson & Justin Timberlake
(this makes my heart happy)

21. New Strings – Miranda Lambert

22. Raging Fire – Phillip Phillips
(ummmm, he’s like so cute)

23. Wild Wild Love – Pitbull Ft. G.R.L (MR. WORLDWIDE)

24. What You’ve Done To Me – Samantha Jade
(dance, dance, daaaaance)

25. Get Me Some Of That – Thomas Rhett
 

 

 Enjoy your summer, fellas. for me this is my loooongggg holiday (ha..ha..) :)

3 sahabat, 3 cerita..

Didalam hidup kita akan bertemu berbagai jenis karakteristik orang, ada yang pemarah, ada yang pendiam bahkan tertutup, ada yang angkuh, misterius,cerewet, ada juga yang gampang “dibodohin” bahkan banyak juga loh yang “maha tahu” segalanya. Kisah ini bercerita tentang tiga sahabatku, dengan segala latar belakang dan kepribadian mereka yang berbeda jauh satu dengan yang lain. Dan aku, harus bisa menerima ketiganya didalam  kehidupanku.

Sara

Aku mengenalnya sejak dibangku kuliah, kita bersahabat sudah 8 tahun. Dia adalah teman sekelasku ketika mengenyam pendidikan di UGM dulu. Kenapa aku bisa bersahabat lama dengan Sara, karena dia anak yang sangat bisa diajak diskusi apapun, mulai dari jaman kita dulu suka ngebahas urusan kuliah, gebetan yang jadi inceran kita berdua, sampai politik dan perkembangan perekonomian Negara ini pun sering banget jadi bahan obrolan kita kalau bertemu (Bok.. secara kita kan anak akuntansi, hehe!) bertemu dan sekedar menikmati kopi atau teh di kafe, udah jadi acara rutin kita berdua lah pokoknya, Sara asli orang yogyakarta, jadi memang pembawaanya kalem dengan Javanese-beauty-nya, rambut lurus pendek sebahu, Sara cukup menarik, kulitnya coklat, tinggi semampai dan bertubuh langsing (kurus malahan menurutku). Dia bekerja di salah satu perusahaan media televisi terbesar di Indonesia, sejak 4 tahun lalu dan menetap di Jakarta sejak saat itu. Aku tidak hanya mengenal Sara, keluarganya pun sangat akrab dengan aku. Satu hal yang selalu membuatku merasa heran dengan sahabatku ini, dia gampang sekali percaya dan berbaik hati buat orang, I mean, kita boleh aja baik ke orang (harus kok malahan) tapi inget  juga dong jangan sampai pengasihan lupa diri dan pada akhirnya orang-orang dengan gampangnya ngeinjek-injek kita.

Dirga

Nama lengkapnya, Dirgantara Bramantyo. Menurutnya, nama itu berhubungan dengan pekerjaan ayahnya sebagai perwira TNI angkatan udara. Aku mengenal Dirga sejak kecil, (yep, sejak kecil) orang tua kami bersahabat bahkan mungkin sejak aku dan Dirga belum lahir. Kami tidak seumuran, Dirga empat tahun lebih tua dari aku, umurnya kini 30 tahun. Single, available dan tajir mampus. Aku bertemu Dirga kembali saat aku mulai masuk kuliah, aku agak lupa dengan sosok laki-laki ini, maklum lama tidak bertemu, yang aku tahu dia kuliah di Seattle, sejak saaat itu aku tidak pernah lagi bertemu dengan dia. Suatu ketika, di Hari raya idul fitri tepatnya di tahun pertamaku menjadi mahasiswa, aku bertemu Dirga di rumahku. Ayah dan ibunya Dirga serta kakak perempuannya Mbak Ayu bersilahturahmi ke rumahku saat itu. It was really surprising me, after a very long time, we are lost in contact, I met my childhoodmate again. Aku tidak banyak tahu tentang Dirga beberapa tahun ini, yang aku tahu dia kuliah di seattle dan telah kembali ke Jakarta, dibalik sikap tertutup dan misterius Dirga, aku mengetahui sisi lain dari pria berdarah Batak-Jerman ini.

Veve

Aku kenal Veve sejak kita berdua magang di Citibank dulu, yang paling aku ingat dari cewek satu ini adalah ke-judes-an nya sama orang, kalau ngomong  langsung nyablak, dan  kalau kalian baru kenal Veve, kalian pasti bakal super BT sama dia. first impressionku pas kenal dia ancur banget, satu lagi anaknya kasar. Becandaannya ataupun omongannya. One thing that I like about her itu cuma satu she speaks straight to the point, itu menunjukan dia bukan kind of basa-basi-people. Veve, berdarah Palembang, kulit putih, rambut curly dengan cat berwarna dark brown, she is stylish. Aku tidak pernah betah ngobrol dengan dia, palingan hanya sekedar hi and bye saja. Namun ada satu moment dimana, aku akhirnya mengerti kenapa Veve, bersikap seolah tidak pernah peduli dengan orang disekitarnya, kenapa dia selalu ketus ketika beerbicara bahkan tergolong kasar untuk ukuran perempuan kalau bercanda.

A taylor swift song for every love dilemma

When You Get Cheated On

Song: "I Knew You Were Trouble"
Song History: Even when all your friends warn you about the bad boy, sometimes you just have to find out for yourself. For Taylor, that guy was John Mayer. Even though he had a rep as a player, she still dated him—and wound up with a broken heart.
Lyrics To Learn From:
And I heard you moved on from whispers on the street
A new notch in your belt is all I'll ever be
Now I see, Now I see

When You're Untagging Pics Of You and Him On Facebook

Song: "Last Kiss"
Song History: It's totally normal to feel angry immediately after a breakup, but when it comes time to do a Facebook cleansing— updating your relationship status and untagging photos—it can feel a bit sad! Just remember that you're not alone—Tay felt the same way after Joe Jonas dumped her!
Lyrics To Learn From:
So I'll watch your life in pictures like I used to watch you sleep
And I'll feel you forget me like I used to feel you breathe
And I'll keep up with our old friends just to ask them how you are
Hope it's nice where you are

When You Get Dumped For Another Girl

Song: "Better Than Revenge"
Song History: Tay penned this sassy song after her 2008 breakup with Joe Jonas. (Yes, him again!) It's apparently about Joe being wooed away from her by Camilla Bell. As Taylor learned, no cheater is worth her time anyway—and he's not worth yours either!
Lyrics To Learn From:
Soon she's gonna find stealing other people's toys on the playground won't make you any friends
She should keep in mind, she should keep in mind, there is nothing I do better than revenge

When You're About To Break Up...For The Fifth Time

Song: "We Are Never Ever Getting Back Together" (Obviously!)
Song History: Sometimes enough is enough! If you and a guy are so on again/off again that your friends hardly bat an eyelash when you tell them you broke up (again), it's time to end things for good.
Lyrics To Learn From:
Oooh we called it off again last night
But oooh, this time I'm telling you, I'm telling you
We are never ever ever getting back together
We are never ever ever getting back together

When You Want To Get Back Together

Song: "Back To December"
Song History: Sometimes you never know how you feel about a guy until you aren't together anymore. Taylor's heart sank when she saw ex Taylor Lautner sitting six seats away from her at an awards show. And she she saw his sweet smile, she completely regretted breaking up with him. Even though Taylor Squared didn't equal lasting love, every relationship is different. If you really want your ex back, tell him!
Lyrics To Learn From:
It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you
Wishing I'd realized what I had when you were mine
I'd go back to December, turn around and change my own mind
I go back to December all the time

When You Thought It Was True Love

Song: "All Too Well"
Song History: Taylor really thought Jake Gyllenhaal was "the one," which is why it was so hard for her to let him go. "All Too Well" shows that it's OK to wallow a little bit after a breakup. Be sad. Eat ice-cream. Call your friends. And then move on. If Taylor can get over Jake, you can move on too!
Lyrics To Learn From:
And I know it's long gone, and that the magic's not here anymore
And I might be OK, but I'm not fine at all

When The Last Guy You Dated Was Really A Jerk

Song: "Dear John"
Song History:"Dear John" was Taylor's message to John Mayer that she was so over his game playing. If you want a real relationship, don't settle for guys who toy with your emotions.
Lyrics To Learn From:
And I lived in your chess game, but you changed the rules every day
Wondering which version of you I might get on the phone tonight
Well, I stopped picking up and this song is to let you know why

Music is so powerful

Music has an interesting effect on people. It sets moods, alters moods... I saw an amazing documentary called "The Musical Brain" and it's all about the connection between music and the brain. In it, there were many artists (Sting from the Police, Michael Bublé, Wyclef Jean, Feist) talking about how powerful music is. It's crazy! And, There are so many styles and genres out there. You can never know enough about music and how much of an impact it has on our actions and behaviour. I love it. An enormous chunk of my day is spent listening to music, acutally.   

As for what the Bible says about music: we should make a joyful noise unto the Lord (music). It says sing unto the Lord a new song. A form of worshipping God is through songs and we should meditate on spiritual songs and keep them in our hearts throughout the day. It also says that music had amazing capabilities. David (before he became king) soothed King Saul's soul when he was angry with music from his harp.

 My current playlists:

1. I got U -- duke dumont ft. Jax jones

2. The  Monster-- Rihanna

3. Tak ada yang bisa-- Andra and the backbone

4. You -- Basil Vadez

5. Fireworks -- Katy perry

6. Edge of desire -- John mayer (Totally heartbreak, hiks hiks)7. All of me (John Legend) oh my god.... i cant stop listening to this song! :)

8. He loves me -- Jill scott

9. window seat -- Eryka Badu

10. Nelli mckay - p.s i love you

Lowest point of life

Entah kenapa tiba-tiba kepikiran dengan kalimat ini "Lowest point of life" setiap kita pasti punya atau sedang berada dalam titik terendah didalam kehidupan, keadaan yang kita sendiri tidak bisa menjelaskan seperti apa, yang pasti kita akan sangat merasa terpuruk, terbuang, terabaikan, merasa sulit. Keadaan dimana kita sudah tidak mampu lagi menatap hari besok, karena kesedihan yang begitu dalam.
tahun ini, tahun 2014... benar-benar tahun paling crazy dalam hidupku (so far,sih!) people keep underestimating me, I know it. Even prior to meeting me, people seem to have this idea that I am talentless, utterly worthless, and unproductive with my life.
I am 22 years old, and I fear that my life will be one major failure if I don’t destroy this issue and take control now. I feel as though I have potential for amazing things. The few people who believe in me have all concluded that I am an incredibly diverse human being both mentally and creatively, but I feel as though I will die without having ever had the opportunity to share myself with the world.
I was wondering, what is it about my aura that leads people to treat me this way? Furthermore, how can I alter my behavior so that people will meet me and immediately understand that I am truly someone of passion, strength, and talent? My entire life, there has been an entire string of people who have backstabbed me and ditched me for other friends. Back in elementary school, I would always make friends with the new kids who would come to our school, and I would ALWAYS eventually be ditched by these people after they began meeting more people.
 Nobody ever told me I was good at anything, and any personal progression that occured within me, I had to work at all on my own. Truthfully, I forget I have parents most of the time.

Back to the lowest point of life, here is some examples :

• when my husband cheated on me. It wasn't just the cheating I was also being tormented at work because the person he cheated on me with worked with me and the "ladies" that I worked with were all ******* of the highest caliber. So I walked out of my job. It seems like every bad thing that has happened since then is directly linked to that 3-4 month time period. amahaterita 26-30, F Apr 30, 2009
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  The lowest point in my life was when I found my husband dead one morning in 2007. He went to bed the night before complaining of a sore throat and died through the night from an anyuerism. I still feel guilty that I didn't take his sore throat more seriously. He had gone to the doctor the day before he died and so I thought he was fine. I have struggled with the guilt of not pressing for better medical attention, for not pampering him that night because I was busy doing household chores. I feel like I've been punishing myself for these things and everything I ever said or did to him that could have been unkind or not helpful. So to answer your question the past 2 years have been the lowest point of my life. bebitz 41-45, F Apr 30, 2009.

Masalah hdup bukan melulu soal cinta, uang, tetapi keutuhan rumah tangga, pertumbuhan anak-anak, masalah dengan diri kita sendiri, ketidakpercayaan diri, penakut, pemalu, pendendam dst...

tetapi, we have to Wake up! setiap masalah datang didalam hidupku sekarang, i just can laugh it off, bukan karena hidupku sempurna, NO! tapi don't stress over something that you cant change, let it be...let it go, Let GOD!

 

I used to like Pacific place

pernah nggak kalian ke suatu tempat dan all of sudden tempat itu mengingatkan kalian pada seseorang kembali? karena ditempat itu kalian sering menghabiskan waktu untuk bertemu,  makan, belanja, ngobrol tentang apa saja, kehidupan, urusan kerjaan, urusan kuliah, bos yang menyebalkan, dosen yang super rempong, etc. I did.

3 tahun terakhir kalau main ke jakarta pas ada libur selalu ke pacific place.

kita terakhir melakukan itu 3 tahun lalu, haha dan i still remember everything. I've avoiding going to this place altogether ever since. It reminded me too much of you. of us.

Juli 2013, aku kesana lagi. sendirian, menunggu sahabatku Vira.
aku mendadak ingat lagi kamu bercerita tentang pekerjaanmu, tentang bos konyolmu itu, dan kemudian melihatku dan bertanya "Mau makan dimana.?"  you always tell me you hate your boss but you love your job. walaupun jarang banget dapat cuti. ke tempat ini teringat lagi saat harus discuss tentang film yang bakal kita nonton, aku nggak peduli kita mau nonton apa, what matters was us.

saat itu, aku makan sendiri lagi, as much as it would hurt to eat there alone, it will hurt more if i have to see you there, with her.

udah ah, cuma mau makan dan menunggu Vira disini, bukan kenangan kita.